Humid

I feel shaky right now, my sense of security challenged, trying to hold on to whatever I can. I'm scared and disorientated with nothing to hold on to, no sense of direction, no idea of what lies ahead. All I have known is destroyed. I'm tired of holding on. I fall into it, drift and wallow in it. Right now I never want to surface. I'm used to feeling like this. I am too scared to feel any other way.